Hello Ner Vod

It's not that I don't have headcanons for characters or ships, I HAVE TONS, it's just whenever I have to sit down to white a coherent English text that is also have to hit the Entertaining-minimum, my mind just goes static and blorbo-thoughts pufff, gone. 

|| Republic Commando: Hard Contact || 2004 || Book series || Military, Sci-Fi || 18+ for violence and harrowing themes ||

Yes, she could use the Force. When she felt confident and controlled, she could master everything Fulier had taught her; but those days could be few and far between. She wrestled with a temper unbefitting a Jedi. She watched those with serene acceptance of the Force and envied their certainty. She wondered why Jedi blood had bothered to manifest itself in someone who was so fallible.

Description about Etain. I think Etain lacks a purpose other than not become a failure, which is already tainted with fear and uncertainty. Having a temper could mean, she is frustrated with herself a lot. Angry.

In this scene Etain also confronts Jinart that she is not who she looks like, and immediately assumes that if she is not a Jedi (not part of the Jedi Order?) than a Force User who turned to the Dark Side. I like this detail. The close mindedness of the Jedi. Either someone is a Jedi or a Dark Side user. Etain doesn't consider there are other options or other beings who use the Force outside of the Order. 

Also this. Etain envies the state of mind what she lacks. Safety. Stability. Sense of self. 

Genshin is really great at doing morally grey and complex stories, but sometimes... welll... it's not satisfying. XDD

Decided to finish the character quests in Genshin, because I'm so behind with those. Childe's character quest is the proof that putting a child into the center of the plot make established badass characters worse.

KhmhkhmmTheBadBatchkhmmhhkhhmmm.

He is a soldier in a foreign country making other people's life worse, while also a loving his own little brother and family is everything for him, it can coexist. But making him a major dork while at it... idk. It felt weird. I don't think they really knew what they wanted to do with Childe at this point of the story. He is a psycho, he is a rich kid sugar daddy to Zhongli, he is loyal soldier but also feeling shame about this servitude, a loving overprotective brother who will make a dumbass of himself in front of his subordinates to protect his secret in front of his little brother...

I wonder if this "but he loves his brother!!!" is a way to make player symphatetic toward him? That he is just a guy like everyone else? 

But as the story goes, it really turns toward the narrative that these Fatui guys are not actually bad guys. Despite being a Military organization. Despite using diplomatic-guise for coercion and debt collection. And aggressively spreading the Tsaritsa's vision. And Human experimentations. And intimidating locals into submission. And stealing artifacts. And sacrificing civilians for "greater good". And--

EDIT: 
so yeah my problem is that Genshin villains are often not commited to being a villains, or at least the ones you get to play as well. 

Tartaglia (Childe) was the first villain and he was so badass during the whole Liyue storyline. Until he became a playable character. 
Signora? Sexy smart villain. Dead.
Scaramouche? He was interesting angry potato, and as soon as he became playable, he became... idk. I guess Nahida truly tamed him. 
Arlecchino being an ally because she didn't want her homeland to be drowned, also being a playable character, and now she is showing more and more soft side. But also it turned out this wasn't even her homeland to begin with. 
Capitano? Him being an ally and "loving his land" was made sense, but yeah, dead. 
Il Dottore? Megalomaniac intellectual. Absolute fav. Dead. Possibly. 
Columbina... I'm biased toward her because she was relatable for me XD But I heard that her story got a massive rewrite too? She became a playable character, and friendship saved her and the whole day. She wasn't even a villain but she used her past connections to the Fatui to help us, 
which makes Sandrone also an ally. Who is dead. Sacrificed herself. 

So my point is that the enemy is more like now completely the Abyss, and not a Snow-Queen-gone-insane like how I expected. Ehh... given the recent Genshin theories where the story is heading, it make sense, but I don't know if i like it. I need to time to get used to it. XD

Please... don't make Tsaritsa being a playable character XDD Let her remain interesting. But given she is an archon, she will be a playable character... 

EDIT EDIT:
So look at this way: 
Tartaglia --> HE WAS the villain of the Liyue arc and boss fight. 
Signora --> She did trouble in Mondstadt, she caused trouble in Liyue and she was the bossfight of the Inazuma arc and died. 
Scaramouche -> Villain of the Inazuma and Sumeru arc -> Reformed. But he was the main boss. 
Arlecchino -> she WASN'T the enemy of the Fontaine arc. It was the bigass whale from Tartaglia's dreams and a prophecy. 
Capitano -> He WASN'T the enemy of the Natlan arc -> Sacrificed himself to save Natlan. The main enemy was some bigass Dragon i totally forget its significance. 
Il Dottore -> He was mentioned in several arc, appeared in Sumeru as villain, and main villain after Rerir and boss fight of Nod-Krai. Possibly dead. 
Columbina -> She wasn't assigned to any nation, so she never got any affairs to meddle with. So while she had potential introduction as a villain first, in Nod-Krai it was erased completely. 
Sandrone - Her fortress and Pulonia was briefly playable. She wasn't a bossfight. She was a major ally and sacrificed herself. 
 

|| Republic Commando: Hard Contact || 2004 || Book series || Military, Sci-Fi || 18+ for violence and harrowing themes ||

Atin appeared, a jumble of circuitry and wires in one hand. “Looks like the tinnies have shown up to take over. But why shoot them?”

“Tinnies?” Fi said.

“What did your squad call them?”

“Droids.”

Atin's squad trivia.

|| Republic Commando: Hard Contact || 2004 || Book series || Military, Sci-Fi || 18+ for violence and harrowing themes ||

“Yeah. We could always wait until they die of liver failure. Save the ammo.”

I'm starting to believe that Niner is the comedian in Hard Contact, not Fi. I love his dry humor.

|| Republic Commando: Hard Contact || 2004 || Book series || Military, Sci-Fi || 18+ for violence and harrowing themes ||

I mentioned that I so want to jump into Triple Zero for the Null posts, but also I want to stay here and finish this project because of Etain. Because to understand Kal Skirata in Triple Zero, we also have to understand Etain too, for Etain is the mirror of Kal Skirata. 

But also, this is bit of a longshot theory, but what if Etain's longing for a family was actually Jinart's fault, due to tampering with her mind when she wanted Etain to stay put? That Jinart projected into her mind that she can find comfort in a family, even in this one. So she shouldn't run away from this safe place until it's time. I need to pay attention for her thoughts regarding her past memories or what she actually thinks about family. 

|| Republic Commando: Hard Contact || 2004 || Book series || Military, Sci-Fi || 18+ for violence and harrowing themes ||

If she had spat in his face, he couldn’t have been more appalled. He knew she was aware of what would enrage him; she used the emotional term warrior, not bounty hunter. She knew how much the revelation would offend his cultural pride. But she was right to tell him. It was a matter of honor, and more than his own. He would not see his heritage used in this travesty of honest war.
“I’d take the contract even if you didn’t pay me,” he said.

I am on my knees before Uthan. It was enough to mention Jango Fett, and Hokan is now eating from her hands. She knows how to manipulate him. Daaaammmmmn I love her so much. She is just as ruthless bastard as Hokan, just on the different spectrum.

Hokan knows how Uthan played him, so now he wants to intimidate her in his own subtle way too. Did I mention how I adore their dynamic???

“I think layoff notices might be in order. Perhaps your troops might start by helping me with the administration of that.”

Uthan blinked for a second, and Hokan realized she had taken longer than usual to understand what he meant. She’d grasped the meaning: I can be as ruthless as you. She’d think twice before undermining him as she was undermining Ankkit.

|| APOCALYPSE NOW || 1979 || Psychological fiction, Military, Epic || 18+

I used to prepare pipe for my husband. It was the morphine he took for the wounds he suffered in his heart. He would rage and he would cry, my lost soldier. And I said to him, there are two of you. Don't you see? One that kills and one that loves. And he said to me I don't know whether I'm an animal or a god. But you are both. You want more? All that matters is that you're alive. You are alive, Captain. That's the truth. There are two of you, don't you see? One that kills and one that loves.

 

Currently watching the Director's cut version of this movie and this quote really stuck with me.

Uthan laughed a low, tinkling laugh that he knew could just as easily switch to a commanding voice and freeze a parade ground of troops.

You know what?

I also want Empress Uthan to step on me.